Dear blog

Assalamualaikum wbt,

Bismillahi Rahmaanir Raheem.

All praises to Allah, The Almighty God, the Creator and the Sustainer. I bear witness that there is no other God worthy of worship except Allah, and Prophet Muhammad SAW is His Messenger.

It has been a while since I wrote my last blog post. I thought I would be able to maintain to post monthly even a short line of sentence but apparently I didn't manage to do so. At the moment my friends and I are fighting in revising everything we could for our final year exams. Yup, for our very last exam in med school insyaAllah.

Many time it came across my mind that I wouldn't be able to finish revising all topic. The workload is very huge and the stuffs to memorize are just too much at this little time. Sometimes I was disturbed by the anxiety and worry of the exam everytime I meet my friends or go to the wards. Everyone looks stress, but we never forget to support each other. After all final med is about passing the exams together...

At this moment, I prayed to Allah to keep us in faith all the time, ease our difficulties, lift up the anxiety and shower us with Allah's Mercy. O' Allah, I am worried if I were too carried away with this dunya. Please help us to make this examinations as part of ibadah, in striving to be a better Muslim. O' Allah, please forgive me for all of my sins and ignorance, guide me with Your Nuur and please do not leave me to myself even for the twinkling of the eye. Ya Rabb, I put my life into Your Hands...

Amin ya Rabbal Alamin.

Oh and Gee

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim. 

Today i'm starting my first day of 8-weeks Obstetric and Gynaecology, or people used to call it O&G or OnG or anything that you want to call it.

Seniors said it's a hectic rotation, and after reading the rotation guidelines I am sort of agree with them. Case presentation, on-calls, case write up, special clinic, operating theater etc etc. On top of that, I am actually observing how interesting is this rotation for me to be my master choice. Yela, some women said men are way better if they are the O&G specialist. Sebabnya since men never feels the pain that women have in any O&G pathology, so male specialist would treat the female patient compassionately. Compared to female specialist, people said they would be less empathy ie during the delivery of the newborn(especially to the nervous mother for her first child) since they've feel the pain before. 

Would you agree with that?

Well, it may be true. But it would never challenge the fact that women are so embarrassed with the male specialist as it deals with their intimate part of body. (Although in reality, all of my O&G senior lecturers are men..) So to all women doctors, medical students out there especially Muslimah doctor, lets try to be the one who master this course better than men(this is not kind of women liberation or something, this is just following the fitrah of the patient! ^_^ ) insyaa Allah.

The other thing that we should have at the back of our mind, is the need to understand the fiqh of women. The fiqh, or the ruling in Islam regarding women menstrual cycle, vaginal discharge, abnormal vaginal bleeding, bleeding after delivery etc and when does a woman should clean themselves(mandi wajib) to pray or should not pray. These obstetric and gynecological condition of Muslim women are so important to understand because it affects our daily ibadah to Allah. Most Muslim patient would refer this problem to the female doctor or GP so we should equipped ourselves with the knowledge in fiqh too. Insyaa Allah.

In the name of Allah, the Most Gracious, Most Merciful, we begin the course..

"Siapa yang keluar ke satu jalan bertujuan untuk mencari ilmu, Allah akan mudahkan untuknya jalan ke syurga" 

(HR Muslim)

The path is difficult, but the final destination is certain. 

O' Allah, we seek strength from you...

Insignificant

Picture from somerandomcrap.com

Assalamualaikum wbt

Alhamdulillah, it's 2013 now, and let me start my first 2013 post with Bismillahirrahmanirrahim....In the name of Allah, The Most Gracious, Most Merciful.

Alhamdulillah 2012 has been an amazing year, witnessing our ups and downs while adapting with Malaysian style of learning after leaving Dublin for good. (psst, yesterday entah kenapa, suddenly i miss nak makan taco fries huhu)

So many things happened, and yet it made me to know my Lord and myself better. Indeed, we are weak and need Allah most of the time.

Ok back to work! Just now we had a talk organized by PMCISOC entitled 'The Signs of God' given by an astronomer I would say, who is doing master and PhD on astrology. He is a Professor from USM, and subhanallah I am telling you that this is my first time listening to a talk directly given by the person of the field.

Previously, I used to listen or attending lectures about the Creator and His Signs given by a person who is well experience in general Science, either a doctor or an ustaz. Well, this Prof didn't really gave us super facts that had never been mentioned by other scholars before, as he spoke on common things that we already knew and had read somewhere. But knowing that he is the man of astrology, surely he knows best on what he told us/showed us pictures. 

And only after his lecture, by Allah's will alhamdulillah, I finally understand this verse of Quran that made me wonder back in 2009 when I was in KMB. I still remember asking my roommate about this verse,

"The creation of the heavens and the earth are greater than the creation of mankind. But most of the people do not know"

[40:57]

The creation of human is extremely complex, and I thought we are the most complex of all creation. That is why human being is chosen to worship Him by prayers, compared to other creation which Allah doesn't ask to do so. As we know, our body works by system. This system is being explained under physiology, only after we know the anatomy of the human body. All of our systems work so harmony to maintain our survival. There's a lot to learn from these systems and I concluded that 'if the creation is already complex, the Creator must be more complex and perfect'.

And today, the Prof explained how complex it is our Milky Way galaxy starting from our very own solar system and there are 100 billion more galaxies in the universe, I was stunned and feels like-'Yes, this is it. This is exactly what Allah meant in His verse that I've been wondering for so long. Subhanallah, Rabbana maa khalaqta haaza bathila, Subhanaka faqina azaabannar'

These big big things are so little that we know about it. Compared to us, as human being, our size are too small to be significant before His eyes. Allahuakbar..

You see, no matter how small we are, Allah sheds us His Mercy everyday....

Allah gives us rezki to survive...

Allah grants us love to live our life better.

And what is our value in front of Allah?

It's purely from TAQWA.

O' Allah, allow us to be among the muttaqeen....

He is what we think about Him

pic from here

Assalamualaikum wbt

Entah mengapa, exam kali ini terasa berlainan benar cabarannya. 

Saya sebolehnya tidak gemar menulis terkait peperiksaan yang sedang saya tempuhi, bimbang ia bagaikan keluhan yang ditaip tanpa sedar. 

Juga terasa berbeza kali ini, kerana tiap kegelisahan yang saya adukan padaNya, Dia membalas segera pada kalamNya yang saya baca..

Subhanallah, perasaan ini yang membezakannya :')

"Dan tidaklah engkau (wahai Muhammad) dalam menjalankan sesuatu urusan dan tidaklah engkau membaca dalam sesuatu surah atau sesuatu ayat dari Al-Quran dan tidaklah kamu (wahai umat manusia) dalam mengerjakan sesuatu amal usaha, melainkan adalah Kami menjadi saksi terhadap kamu, ketika kamu mengerjakannya dan tidak akan hilang lenyap dari pengetahuan Tuhanmu sesuatu dari sehalus-halus atau seringan-ringan yang ada di bumi atau di langit dan tidak ada yang lebih kecil dari itu dan tidak ada yang lebih besar, melainkan semuanya tertulis di dalam Kitab yang terang nyata.  Ketahuilah! Sesungguhnya wali-wali Allah, tidak ada kebimbangan (dari sesuatu yang tidak baik) terhadap mereka dan mereka pula tidak akan berdukacita.  

(Wali-wali Allah itu ialah) orang-orang yang beriman serta mereka pula sentiasa bertakwa."

(Surah Yunus, 60-62) 

Allahu Allah. 

Perasaan di comfort kan oleh Yang Tercinta, rasanya terlalu bahagia. He listens, He knows.

Suka untuk saya kongsi sebuah cerita yang saya dapati daripada cerita-cerita pendek yang dikongsi di facebook, moga Allah merahmati individu yang berkongsi kisah ini.

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Di Mesir ada seorang pemuda bernama Abbas Assisi. Suatu hari ia bersilaturahim dengan Syeikh Hasan Al Banna iaitu Ketua organisasi Ikhwanul Muslimin, mereka kemudian bercakap-cakap dan Syeikh Al Banna bertanya tujuan Abbas Assisi selanjutnya. Asisi yang baru menyelesaikan pendidikan menengahnya menjelaskan tujuannya berjumpa dengan Sheikh Al-Banna. Lalu Al Banna berkata:
”Mengapa kamu tidak mencuba untuk masuk bidang ketenteraan?

“Saya punya masalah dengan mata saya,” jawab Asisi, ”Saya takut tak boleh lulus dalam ujian menembak”

“Tak apa,bertawakallah pada Allah,” kata Syeikh Al Banna.

“Bagaimana saya akan bertawakal kepada Allah, sementara saya mengetahui ada masalah dengan mata saya?

“Justeru itu,”jawab Al Banna ”Bertawakkalah kepada Allah, kalau matamu sihat, boleh jadi kamu akan bertawakal kepada matamu”.

Abbas Asisi mengikuti saran Al Banna, ia masuk ketenteraan, ketika mengikuti ujian menembak, hatinya kembali diliputi keraguan,tapi ia ingat pesan gurunya itu, maka ia berusaha secara maksimum dan menyerahkan kepada Allah saja, ternyata ia lulus sebagai peserta terbaik dalam ujian menembak itu.

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Nasihat Syeikh Al-Banna cukup ringkas- bertawakallah pada Allah.

Hakikatnya tawakal merupakan sesuatu yang sulit untuk dirasai oleh manusia, kerana ianya boleh saya analogikan seperti memasuki sebuah gua. Anda bukan masuk ke dalam gua yang gelap itu secara bersahaja, tetapi tawakal itu ibarat memasuki gua dengan penuh rasa percaya.

Langkah perlu diteruskan, tetapi ada dua kemungkinan yang boleh berlaku yakni anda akan terjatuh atau terselamat daripada lubang atau batu yang tidak kelihatan.

Jika kurang rasa percaya, pasti, anda akan menoleh semula ke pintu masuk dan berkira-kira  untuk berpatah balik atau hanya berada berhampiran di pintu gua.

Jika penuh rasa percaya, insyaAllah dengan janjiNya anda akan menemui sinar cahaya yang terang di bahagian penghujung gua. Saat ini berbahagialah mereka yang punya rasa percaya.

Allah pernah berfirman, 'Aku adalah pada sangkaan hambaKu'.

He is what we think about Him.

Lepaskan rasa gelisah dan kecewa, dan pilihlah untuk mempercayai Dia.

Pasti, Dia akan menunaikan janjiNya.

Yang mengharap cintaNya,

alhuda.

forget me not

To be kept temporarily.
Oh, the book on the top is the first that i will read right after exam~ ^_^

Assalamualaikum wbt 

Alhamdulillah, selesai paper Medicine dan Surgery yang persediaannya agak kurang jika dibandingkan dengan persediaan untuk paper Ophthalmology dan ENT.

Baru tersedar, selepas ini akan ber'kawan' semula dengan Medicine dan Surgery lebih kurang setahun daripada sekarang. Oh my, cabaran kepada limbic system saya untuk mengingatinya forever~ But insyaAllah, all specialist rotation nanti (O&G, Paeds, Public Health, Psychiatry) pastinya memerlukan basic knowledge of medicine and surgery.

It is as if the books are trying to say 'Forget me not, Huda!' 

Teringat kata-kata umi tempoh hari, 

'Memang la belajar medic ni kena ingat sampai mati, macam belajar ilmu fardhu ain juga...kena amalkan baru boleh ingat..'

*Dushhh*
Direct tembak pada hati. Insafku seketika mengenangkan ilmu fardhu ain yang kurang ini T_T

Astaghfirullahalazim.

Moga setitis ilmu Allah yang diizinkanNya untuk kami memahaminya, dapat memberi peluang kepada kami untuk menebarkan manfaatnya pada masyarakat, lillahi taala.

All the best pada rakan-rakan seperjuangan!

Mixed feeling

Written by Maryam Sakinah bt Mohd Fauzi, from London.
It made me to also missed Syakirah, Fatimah, Fatih and Nur :)

Assalamualaikum wbt

All praises to Allah The Almighty, for His grace and mercy upon every single living thing in this world.

And peace be upon our beloved Prophet Muhammad, for his love we are now gathered in the true religion, Islam.

How is everyone? I am writing this post in my little home sweet home in Ipoh. Currently having my one-month holiday(or should I say, preparation?)before I start my class in Penang Medical College in early March. Today is my second day at home as I just arrived from Dublin the day before yesterday.

Hm, how do I feel now, ya? Lots of people asked the same question, including ummi. Well I can’t really described what do I feel atm–so I called it mixed feeling. Yeah, mixed because I left all of my friends over there, which indirectly means I left my responsibilities incomplete. They have to continue their studies without us, and so do we. We do know that we’re still studying the same thing, but technically everything will be different. Different syllabus, different experiences, different challenge and different environment for sure.

I said I left my responsibilities incomplete because I left everyone in the middle of our medical course, as we used to support each other in all means. I left my akhawat over there, at the time when our ukhwah is still blooming and to some others I was unable to know them better! I missed my housemates(Saffa, Aisyah, Yek, Nasreen), my fellow friends(ijah,yati, nasuha, ain, amal, dj, linda, sab, adib, Jannah, kin kin, etc), seniors and juniors, beautiful akak-akak that I love for the sake of Allah(Kak Ain, Kak Siti, Kak Na,Kak Nab,Kak Aniza,Kak Mel, Kak Lina etc  and ALL akak seniors: I adore all of you very very much!) , my wonderful ISOC sisters J(moyser, rana, sharmina, ramia, khadija, kak ikin,nadira, a’faf etc-how can I forget you?you taught me to see the world from different point of view subhanAllah!)and to all others that made my life in Dublin such a memorable one. Alhamdulillah, all praises to Allah.

At the same time, alhamdulillah I am happy to be at home and meet my family(kinda like going back to ‘recharge’ before I start a hectic life in Penang(as the seniors said!)). I felt so blessed by Allah for giving me chances to meet my little 3-months old nephew which I only saw him in pictures and in video calls before. Well, my first week in Ipoh will be fully occupied with him!

Alhamdulillah, Alhamdulillah.

Allah is the Most Gracious, Most Merciful.

I prayed to Allah to protect everyone that I left over there. Everyone that I love for the sake of Allah. Everyone that had taught me the reason to always try to be a better Muslim. Everyone that changed the way I viewed this world, and made me realized about the need to give, before you take.

O’Allah, please sheds Your Mercy and Kindness upon them. Protects them from calamity and misery, and grant them Your Love till hereafter. They are the minority in that country, made them strong O’Allah to face the kuffar who non-stop oppressing the communities. Soothe the heart of people there to believe in Oneness of You, O’Allah. If we’re not meant to meet again in this world, allow us to meet again in Jannah..

With love,

Huda Mansor

RCSI-PMC('09-'14)

Ipoh, Perak, Malaysia.

Here and there

"When will you go back to Malaysia?"

"InsyaAllah on 12th February, dan kelas di PMC starts 12 March".

Dia menggangguk tanda faham.

"So, what will you do over there?"

"InsyaAllah akan mula clinical years, masuk hospital etc. Kiranya sekarang ni baru habis 2.5 years in Ireland, and I gotta continue there for another 2.5 years."

And there was a short silence.

"Well actually I don't understand, why should the government sent you to do your pre clinical years abroad and then come back for clinical in Malaysia?"

"Err, so that we can learn more and get used to the disease in Malaysia?". That's the reason that I have after all. I must get used to the environment, get used to the common diseases- so I would have a clear picture about my workplace once I graduated and surely it helps me to practise better. Isn't it a good thing to learn in the environment where you would end up working for your entire life? She made me thinking of any downside that I might not realize before. And I hardly can find any at the moment.

"Pre clinical, you can learn it anywhere. I think it would be better if you can do your clinical years here."

"Why?," I suddenly interrupted.

"Because the theory is just the same no matter where you learn it. Your clinical skills that differentiate whether you would be a good doctor or not.

Yes, that's true in Malaysia you can learn more and in fact you can DO more over there compared to here. But based on what I observed, kesian tengok HO yang kerja macam robot. They lost the value of treating the patient. As doctors, having a good communication skills is very crucial in treating your patient and also in creating an effective working environment. 

Your clinical skills(ie how to the such procedure etc), you can master it within months. As an HO, you will do it over and over again so that would be no problem. It's actually your communication skills that I think back in Malaysia it's still problematic. 

Specialist,consultant bila suka marah-marah, so HO jadi takut la. Bila takut kena marah, kerja pun buat takat bagi lepas je-asalkan siap. 

As a doctor you should treat the patient as human being and be a good team player among your colleagues.

The environment in Malaysia is still not conducive in producing a good doctor with good communication skills. That's why I think it's better for you to develop the skills here."

Her explanation made me speechless. 

I've never think from this point of view, and surely she talked based on her own experiences. She is Dr.Zainab, graduated from RCSI which also means she is my super super senior. There was also Dr.Intan in her house when I came to visit her last Christmas holiday in London. 

And both of them changed my view within minutes. 

"You know when I greeted my staff and asked a few things macam 'makan apa pagi tadi?, sihat ke?', dia boleh terdiam sebab terkejut sekejap. Dia cakap 'Doktor, sebelum ni tak pernah ketua jabatan tegur saya macam tu..'. Kita kat sini kan dah biasa bila jumpa senior doctor, consultant ke they greet us every morning. Kadang-kadang benda kecil macam ni yang membuatkan environment tu selesa untuk bekerja," added Dr.Intan. 

"Ooo..bagusnya." That's the only word I can say, while my mind kept 're-programming' the way I viewed the medical environment before.

And the chatting went on with a lot more stories from them. I loved to listen to the stories because it came with a piece of advice for me to reflect and not to repeat the same mistakes. Syukur sangat Allah temukan dengan mereka petang tu.

Well, I'm not saying that studying medicine in UK/Ire makes you a better doctor. After having an evening with them I concluded that our own personality will determine who we are in the future. Starts develop the good skills from now, so it will become your habit in future. Be positive and strong in dealing with other human being. Always be humble, but at the same time know your stuff(jgn humble n dlm masa yg sama mmg xstudy pun-so mmg sendiri yg rugi!). You're a daie who works as a doctor, so if a daie has a bad attitude, could you promote your deen(way of life) at the same time? You'll never be. 

I also realized that knowing the skills to win the heart of people/mad'u will also make you a better Muslim doctor. Yes, when da'wah skills is being implemented in daily business. The business which in turn brings you back to your Lord.

O' Allah, tsabbit qulubana a'la deenik..

"Tapi takpe lah..dah kena balik, balik la. Jangan risau, and do your best. It's not gonna be easy for you, so be prepared."

Yup, be prepared.

For all good things that I learnt here, I shall continue there insyaAllah.

For all bad things that I discovered here, I shall never repeat it there.

And to Your Lord, you shall turn to.

Heal the world!
(picture from here)

Transition

Assalamualaikum wbt

Subhanallah, it has been a while i didn't update my blog. Yes i did feel quite guilty but i don't want to write anything rubbish over here. When the blog was kept in dust, i've been asking myself - what happen to my heart? Why don't I have anything to tell the world? There was a feeling of emptiness when my heart didn't 'talk' as much as it always does. And that's worrisome.

Maybe it just a problem of writing it back in a blog post-as new things and new tarbiah from Allah happened everyday(thanks to Allah)- but when i couldn't find some time to sit down and write, i'm afraid i can't even find anymore time in the future. Yes, future is waiting for me for more challenges. I'm currently preparing in all aspect-but I can't lie to my heart that I am nervous and worried. 

One can never predict his future, but one can change his future by taking the first step today.

And it's about transition.

Picture from here

Some people around me had just gone through a big transition in their life. Guess what? They've just got married :) (lol, i'm not planning to write about marriage in this post, but i am about to congratulate them here)

So, congratulations to four important people in my life after all this while-Paa, Ajim, Kak Sharifah Hidayah and my cousin Kak Qilah. Barakallahulakuma, and may Allah gathers you and your spouses under His Kindness till Jannah. Aminnn.

I did feel quite sad since I'm unable to attend any of the wedding reception(walimah).

During Paa's wedding, most of us were struggling with exams over here in Dublin. But alhamdulillah, she came  to UK&Ireland after that so we were able to meet her and had some sisters sharing session :)

Ajim and Kak Sharifah Hidayah, yours will be on 4th and 5th of February. Kak Qilah's will be on 12th February. And I am here, waiting for my flight to Malaysia on 12th of February. That's why I can't fulfil the invitations although my heart really wants to be there! InsyaAllah i'll keep all of you in my prayers :) 

May Allah guides you while adapting for this new transition. Who knows in the future you'll be my advisor before I step for my own transition insyaAllah:)

Picture from here

And Malaysia, here I come.

In two weeks time, i'll be going back home. For good. Not sure when will I come back here again. And Malaysia would be my reality, and UK&Ire will be keep in memory. I've learnt a lot from studying here and travelling around, insyaAllah I'll be back as a better Muslimah.Amin ya Allah.

Adopt the good things and leave the bad ones. 

I'll be missing EVERYONE. Every single soul that I meet over here, which made me closer to Him. What more can I ask than an ukhwah fillah that kept me strong after all this while?

It keeps me in His path, and it always does. If I am about to fall, they're the one that pull me on the tract back.O Allah, I love them for Your sake and please protects them till hereafter..allow us to meet again in Jannah if not in this world..

Ok, end of sad tone. 

I'm neutral at the moment, haven't started cry yet(yeah, i've cried twice before act huhu).Hopefully I can hold back my tears in the airport(OMG that's really hard..).

Another two and a half year before I completed my degree. And the learning process wouldn't end till I die insyaAllah. The class in Penang Medical College will be start on 12th March 2012, and before that we have to settle down properly in Penang ie find house to rent, know the route to hospital etc etc. I've never been there(the island) and it will be my second home now.

New friends, new environments, new Malay accent(lol).

It' a big transition for me personally, and I prayed to Allah to make me strong. 

InsyaAllah.

The forgotten coin

starting the new year.new semester.hoping my faith towards Allah is better than ever.

Syumul.Bukan Sekular.

Assalamualaikum wbt,

Sekularisme, melahirkan manusia-manusia yang kering hatinya. Lalai jiwanya. Rugi amalan-amalannya apabila tidak membuahkan akhlak sempurna.

Hakikatnya, hanya jiwa-jiwa yang dekat dengan Tuhannya akan terpanggil untuk berbuat baik dalam setiap perkara. Menjaga tingkah laku kerana segalanya akan dikira di hari pengadilan. Memelihara hubungannya dengan Allah dan manusia, dan mempu menghubungkan setiap yang dipelajari dengan kekuasaan Tuhannya.

Namun, bijak sungguh akal manusia (yang juga kurniaan Allah yang Maha Hebat dalam segalanya).

Pemisahan agama daripada kehidupan juga hasil olahan akal manusia itu sendiri. Konon agama itu kolot, tidak membangun, dan konservatif. Tidak saya nafikan, golongan yang berpendirian sekular ini begitu cemerlang dalam kehidupan mereka, sehingga golongan yang kelihatan lebih beragama adalah inferior jika dibandingkan dengan mereka. Maka, lebih megahlah mereka dengan konsep pemisahan ini.

Sayangnya, bahagian spiritual/keruhanian mereka terabai selamanya, dan mereka nyata tidak mengerti bahkan tidak pernah terfikir mengapa mereka diciptakan di dunia. Kasihan sungguh, jika dilihat daripada kaca mata seorang Muslim.

Jika punya ruang dan peluang, kongsikan pemikiran-pemikiran kita dengan mereka (juga saya tak nafikan, mereka lebih radikal terutamanya yang tidak mempercayai kewujudan Tuhan). Maksud saya, kongsikan common sense dan keyakinan kita pada Pencipta. Mereka berhak untuk tahu, melainkan mereka memilih untuk tidak mahu mendengar.

Dan Allah yang lebih Mengetahui.

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Reflection saat merasa sangat geram dan marah apabila melihat keadaan lecture hall yang penuh dengan tin arak berselerakan di atas dan bawah meja, sampah bertaburan, bau arak yang meloyakan, dan lantai college yang melekit pada pagi semalam, ketika saya melalui kawasan tersebut. Saat itu pekerja kolej baru sahaja hendak memulakan kerja-kerja pembersihan.

Malam sebelumnya, saat saya mahu pulang, sempat melirik mata pada kawasan berhadapan dengan lecture hall. Dua buah meja penuh dengan tin arak yang berwarna hijau, tersedia untuk para pelajar yang akan hadir pada event malam itu. Saya tidak pasti nama event tersebut, tetapi saya pasti konsepnya tetap sama-dancing and alcohol.

(Oh ya, makluman bagi yang belum mengetahui- Ireland is the second for highest alcohol consumption menurut OECD- data yang saya baca sebelum saya sampai di sini 2 tahun lepas)

Perkara yang membuatkan saya rasa marah- the party was inside the lecture hall where i used to study!! :(

Astaghfirullahal azim.

of charity week and the street paradox

Assalamualaikum wbt.

May all of you are in peace.

Subhanallah, alhamdulillah, allahuakbar.

All praises to Allah the Most Gracious, Most Merciful.

As you may see from the title, i'm encouraging you to spare some of your money and food that Allah has given you, to those who need it more than you do.

Give sadaqah when you have the chance to do so, and help the unlucky and weak people as we don't know when is our turn to be test by Allah.

Alhamdulillah, the Charity Week 2010 that was organized by FOSIS UK and Ireland, had officially ended. For Ireland, it was started on 2nd Nov until 7th Nov.

I was involved in most of the activities and events, since I was part of the organizing committee for my college Islamic Society(RCSI ISOC). To be frank, it was fun! Alhamdulillah. I learnt a lot about event organization and management, got to know each committee member better, learnt how to respond quickly it there was any shortcoming, etc etc. Alhamdulillah.

And alhamdulillah, all praises to Allah, the 3 weeks of events in RCSI managed to collect more than 6000euro and we won the highest collection among all Islamic Societies in Ireland. We are not proud of the big figure, but we are proud to be able to help MORE people!

Millions of gratitude to all of the committee members, volunteers, participants and donors who made these weeks worthwhile, just for the sake of helping the orphan and needy children, and may Allah bless all of you for your kindness!

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Charity Week, is solely aim to help the children all over the world regardless their faith, race, status and nationality. We made it very clear to all of the donors so that they wouldn't be reluctant to donate since all of the money will be given to the Islamic Relief, before being distributed to lot of places ie Mali, Pakistan, Indonesia, Somalia, Kosova, Chechnya and Bangladesh.

It is an annual event for FOSIS, so they also use the donation for follow-up programme at the area that they already planned and invested during the past years. This also include the funding and sponsorship for the Palestine orphans in Gaza.

I remembered one day when my friends and I went to Grafton Street to do the Street Charity, one middle-age man approached us and asked a few things about the collection. We told him about Islamic Relief, and the money will be use to help all children regardless their faith and race.

And he asked more questions.

"Does it also go to Gaza?"

At this moment we can't really sure about where would the money will go specifically for this year collection, and it was our fault for not study and asked the committee beforehand.

I think when he saw us not really confident about the where the money would go, he added,

"How do you feel about your brothers and sisters in Gaza? Would you help them if they need you?

"Yeah, of course we'll help them."

"So how about this money? There are also children in Gaza. They are your brothers and sisters. You know what, at the end of this road there are some people collecting for the Palestinians. I won't give you a cent until all of you go and help your people in Gaza."

He said that while holding a 5 cent coin in his hand. And after a few other questions about our nationality, he just went away.

And we were a little bit confused after that.

After our session ended, we walked down the Grafton Street and when we saw the group of people that the pakcik referring to, now we understand why.

It was the Ireland-Palestine Solidarity Campaign(IPSC) having a day boycott to the issue of Israeli Blood Diamond. They invited people to sign up for the petition and to raise awareness of the existence of the Israeli diamond in the diamond market.

They were all Irish, and currently, actively involved in almost all scope of issue that related to Palestine and apartheid Israel.

This was what the pakcik saw-a paradox in one street. One group of Irish, talked about the Palestinian,raising awareness for people to help them. Another group of Muslim ladies, collecting donation for the children around the world.

Maybe he suddenly thought-why wouldn't we-as the Muslim-be the one who talked about the Palestinians as they are our brothers and sisters.

Why wouldn't we-who believing the same God-didn't support each other?

These are among the defects that the people outside there see, and reflect selagi seluruh umat Islam masih belum bersatu. We are the one who causes fitna to our own religion.

To the pakcik, i am among the supporter of IPSC. And this CW donation will also be send to Gaza also, don't worry. And thank you for making my whole day full with istighfar and reflection.

To my fellow friends, never forget to also make du'a for our brothers and sisters in Palestine and other countries after each of the prayer, and support for any cause that will benefit the oppressed, unlucky, and needy people outside there.

"Have you seen him who denies the deen? He is the one who harshly rebuffs the orphan and does not urge the feeding of the poor." (107:1-3)

Allahu a'lam.

LS Revisited: They've Grown Up

Assalamualaikum wbt..

Apa khabar kalian semua? Moga setiap urusan kita, ada nama Allah di permulaannya..


"Kebajikan itu bukanlah mengadapkan wajahmu ke timur dan ke barat, tetapi kebajikan itu ialah (kebajikan) orang-orang yang beriman kepada Allah, hari akhirat, malaikat-malaikat, kitab-kitab, dan nabi-nabi, dan memberikan harta yang dicintainya kepada kerabat, anak yatim, orang miskin........Mereka itulah orang-orang yang benar, dan mereka itulah orang-orang yang bertaqwa"[2:177]

(Jika anda perasan, ayat al-Quran yang sama juga memberi motivasi kepada kami utk membuat program ini buat pertama kalinya. Boleh baca di sini : Love Symphony 2009 )

Selagi masih punya kesempatan, ku mohon pada Allah agar diberi kekuatan.

Alhamdulillah, on 30-31st August 2010, my friends and I visited Mahad Anak Yatim Darussalam, in Tambun. It was last year we went there for the first time and organizing a 4 days programme with the kids there. This time, we were unable to organize a proper programme for them (we did have a proper plan but due to time constrain and lack of volunteers, we decided to have a 2 day visit) but alhmdulillah, everything went well and we do hope to see them again, insyaAllah.

The buildings were newly painted, and there were new kids too. For those that we've met last year, we can see now that they've grown up ! (^_^)
Alhamdulillah. Right now mostly are able to read and write. They are also good in reciting Quran. Whoever able to read, they'll teach the weak ones.

I know, it's never easy to handle such orphanage hostel and thumbs up to Ustaz, Ummi, and their family for the effort! Allah knows that you've done a lot..and we were there so that at least, Allah's bless also bestowed upon us..

This is our journey to get at-taqwa, during this fasting month. O' Allah, we need you in every moment and in every action.

Here are some pictures sharing...

newly painted building

it was still school time

aki, yati and iman :) thanx for the help!

rambang mata memilih baju~

"bismillahirrahmanirrahim...."

time to get together and doing fun activities :)

i love malaysia

Throughout the visit, alhamdulillah we were able to share stories, breaking fast and having pre-dawn meal (sahur) together, posing in front of camera, testing new baju kurung etc etc.
Subhanallah, they were so energetic! LOL (but they were fasting though)

There was one moment a girl told me about other groups from other college and university that also came to visit them in Maahad. Ummi was quite particular in choosing the group of students who apply to visit the orphanage because she didn't want any bad influence shown by the college students followed by any kids. Well, you know how people wear and socialize out there. And the kids were too young to understand it so they really need a good examples to follow. Ummi knows the kids very much so she also knows what best for them.

For the kids, thanks so much for the wonderful memories. We'll miss you always...insyaAllah by Allah's will, we'll meet again :)

To aki, yati, iman, che, syahir, adlan and azizi, thanks a lot for the help. You guys totally make it possible :)

To other friends who were unable to join us, may these pictures brought up the old memories~~ (^_^). Thanks for the support and indirect help. Do come to Ipoh and we'll visit them together :)



Anyone would like to give your testimony? Huhu, seems like I miss my M07J so much...

Gotta be careful, sis!

Assalamualaikum wbt.

Semoga kalian sentiasa berada di dalam peliharaan Allah, dan sentiasa istiqamah beribadah kepadaNya, insyaAllah.

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Looking at the Muslim's condition in RCSI, the Islamic Society (ISOC) of the college knew that they have a big responsibilities to make the muslims understand the religion better. They have done lots of events and programmes, alhamdulillah.

One of the idea is to gather most of the muslim woman in an occasion or programme, and to convey the message on that time. This is because based on the observation, the muslim woman don't really wear hijab the way they should be. This makes me feels so sad too. Although you are from an Islamic country ie from countries in Middle East, where Islam is mainly practise, the fashion influence from the West had never failed to affect the youngsters there.

The idea is to organize an event called 'Ladies Night'. This event aims to refresh and remind the muslim woman mainly, and to introduce Islam to the non-muslim woman. The issues would be hijab, fashion,and the role of muslim woman in society.

I volunteered to involve in this event's preparation, and one day I had a meeting with a friend from UAE, to discuss about this event.

First thing that she mentioned to me before we get started,

"Sis, you know what, I've think about this for the whole night. We got to be careful, sis! This event is the first ever organize by ISOC and as it aims to educate our friends about hijab, we have to be careful regarding the activities that we want to held. What kind of activities that you think would apply to this event?

We have to be careful so that the activities would not bring 'fitna', or contain anything that not right to the syara' . I am very sure that maybe for the next 3,4 years, the juniors would continue to do this event and I don't want our sins continue due to our wrongdoings at the first place. Do you understand me?"

Subhanallah. Alhamdulillah.

She made me to praise Allah immediately in my heart, due to her strictness and fear from doing anything that would bring Allah's anger.

And thanks to Allah for giving me the opportunity to work and learn a lot of things from her. May Allah bless her always.

The Messenger said, as narrated by Ibn Abbas,

" I had a chance to look at paradise and I found that the majority of its people were poor and I looked into the hell-fire and I found the majority was constituted by woman"

Imaan Ath-Thahabi also said: The reason why the woman are the majority in the hell-fire is because their lack of obedience to Allah, His Messenger and to her husband and also because of their exposing their beauty out of the house, wearing thin transparent clothing which leads man into temptation. So if she does not prevent herself from being a Fitnah to man, she will be.

Wallahualam. May Allah protects us from being a fitnah to this modern world.

Prophet said: "I am not leaving a trail more harmful to man than the Fitnah of woman"

One previous weakness in KMB

Semalam, saya ke bangunan MARA untuk mendengar taklimat pre-departure. (Ya, saya dalam golongan yang belum mendengar briefing lagi)

Memandangkan saya baru sahaja pulih daripada demam secara tiba-tiba pada hari Sabtu lepas, jadi saya tanpa ragu-ragu memakai topeng bagi menutup mulut dan hidung untuk berjalan-jalan menyelesaikan urusan di KL. Dan saya selesa memakainya di khalayak ramai, sebab orang tak akan kenal siapa saya, dan saya terlindung daripada orang awam yang berisiko H1N1=) Terasa bahagia apabila saya memakainya ketika di dalam LRT waktu pagi yang begitu sesak, hehe.

Ketika hendak menaiki lif, (sy xpernah naik tingkat 24 lagi) saya dapati tiada lif yang naik ke tingkat 24, menurut label yang tertera pada sebelah pintu lif.(sbnrnya lif belah kiri iAllah semua boleh ke tgkat 24)

Maka saya berseorangan naik ke tgkat 23, dan merancang untuk menaiki tangga sahaja untuk ke tingkat 24. Tetapi terdapat butang 24 untuk ditekan, dan saya kecewa kerana ia tidak bernyala. Sampai di tingkat 23, saya berlegar-legar untuk mencari kemungkinan lif yang akan ke 24.

Tiba-tiba terdapat satu pintu lif terbuka, dan saya melihat beberapa orang lelaki dan seorang remaja perempuan(yang kemungkinan juga datang untuk pre departure briefing) hendak keluar. Remaja perempuan itu memandang saya dengan matanya yang bulat,(kerana saya berada di hadapan pintu lif)

"Eh, Huda???" ujarnya dengan riaksi terkejut.

"Erk?." Saya terkejut dalam hati. tidak mampu bersuara.

('Dia kenal aku? Dah la pakai topeng ni nmpak mata ngn spek je..sape ye ni...muka mcm familiar...*arghhh nape tak ingat*')

"Yang kat bawah tu semua budak KMB ke?," tanya individu tersebut ketika kami sama-sama bergerak ke dalam dewan.

"Tak..budak KMS yang ramai-ramai tu..KMB sikit je datang," balas saya bersahaja. Tapi masih memerah ingatan.

('Cmne dia tau aku KMB ye??ni kawan mane ni?sek men?time program?sek ren?eh biar betul...apsal mcm xde dalam senarai muka batch aku sepanjang aku skola?ish sape ye?')

Dan saya masih memerah ingatan lagi dan lagi.

'Nama dia Anis...(nmpk kt listname)..tp knape rs mcm aku pggil die Kak Anis ye??Mane aku jumpa akak ni?'


Setelah ketibaan Farah, Wawa dan Anish, barulah saya tahu yang individu tersebut adalah senior blok F ketika di KMB dahulu. Ya, Kak Anis Zafirah. (maaf akak!!)

Apa yang lebih menyedihkan saya dengan ingatan saya ini, Kak Anis pernah berada di bawah usrah jagaan saya ketika Semester 2. Ya, ketika pertama kali kami mengambil alih kerana senior sudah mula fokus pada IB exam 2008. Dan wajahnya familiar kerana beliau adalah kakak kepada kawan saya di SERATAS dahulu. Astaghfirullah, kenapa lambat sangat saya mengingati perkara ini?

Kak Anis pula, sepertinya mengenali saya dengan hanya melihat mata saya bersama spek ini. Hebat juga ingatan dia....

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Di KMB ketika Sem 2, sistem usrah disusun mengikut komposisi separuh senior, separuh junior dan dibawa oleh seorang naqibah junior. Ini adalah untuk mengeratkan hubungan di antara junior dan senior. Tetapi memandangkan senior hanya tingal beberapa bulan untuk IB exam, maka saya sendiri hanya berpeluang duduk bersama-sama senior di dalam usrah kelompok sekejap sahaja. Dan saya masih ingat, susunan usrah kelompok tersebut dirombak kembali(masih semasa sem 2) dan saya menerima senior yang lain pula untuk bersama-sama dalam usrah. Senior yang bersama saya sebelum ini, sudah bersama naqibah lain.

Apabila hal ini terjadi, ukhwah lama menjadi renggang, dan apabila mereka habis IB, kemungkinan besar tidak berjumpa lagi. Maka ingatan pun akan menyimpan kenangan itu di sudut yang belakang...

Ini kelemahannya. Kelemahan saya juga.

Harapnya sistem usrah di KMB yang adik-adikku pegang sekarang tidak berlaku rombakan yang ketara, kerana kita mahukan ukhwah islamiyah itu terbentuk selamanya.

Lupa nama dan lupa wajah, adalah kelemahan yang sangat perlu seorang daie perbaiki. Kita sukar untuk menyentuh hati mereka jika kita sendiri lupa akan mereka....


p/s: teringat kisah Hassan al-Banna yang menghafal nama dan wajah ahli2 baru Ikhwanul Muslimin ketika sedang menandatangani borang keahlian mereka walaupun belum pernah bertemu ahli2 baru tersebut...hasilnya, ketika perjumpaan pertama, Hassan al-Banna mampu memanggil mereka dan membuatkan mereka terkejut dan tertawan dengan cara beliau menarik hati mereka......