mencari spirit yang hilang

Today,(10 nov 2009)



as early as 5.30am, something had happened to me....things that made me cried, although i have no intention to let the tears out.....


my laptop had a problem with the windows, and i got to transfer all of my important files to the local disk d...


i accidentally deleted all of the saved pictures in my laptop....when i realized it, it was too late...i permanently deleted those pictures...which actually ALL pictures that i have..





on that moment i felt like losing something.something that can't be explain, because i knew that it were only folders of pictures...things that i actually able to get back..( but there are some folders that i can't get it back ie EE pictures isk isk)





i tried to hold my tears. really tried.





5.45am


it was time to prepare for subuh prayer. i woke up my roomate, hiding my red eyes that almost obvious.as i walked to the toilet to take a bath, i knew that i couldn't hold it any longer. and i cried by the time i stepped into the shower. yeah, its kinda brilliant thing to cry in the shower as no one will realize it,=).





reason for me to cry:-


-i felt like i was losing all of my family....all of the recorded memories had gone.how could i resist in this college without the pictures of their smiles that give me the strength to live???


-i was losing all of my friends........old friends and my friends here. but i know that i can have the pictures later~~

-folders that i lost: wedding along, raye08,m07j,hari anugerah,islamic wallpaper, cute, EEPICTURES(waaa....!!!) etc and total size of the folder is 5.38GB....

I was losing all of my spirits.........



6.00am
actually since i've just deleted the file, i was fighting with myself that the value of all of those things is nothing compared to the love that Allah had gave to you....only at this time, i managed to control myself....


Astaghfirullahalazim.Astaghfirullahalazim.



Oh Allah, forgive me for having such feelings, which make me felt that this world meant something to me.Forgive me for having all of the thought, that make me cry for the useless things....because one day i will be leaving everything that i owned, forever.....one that moment nothing can help me except Allah......

this world is nothing compared to Your love, oh Allah.

then i gained my spirits back, with a smile on my face after subuh prayer.
Alhamdulillah.......